The Zoloft is doing nothing for my pain. Nothing. I am reaching the breaking point as I type this.
The medicine is exhausting me and no amount of sleep seems to be quenching the endless yawning, mind-dulling feeling that I just can’t catch up at night. I’m getting adequate sleep, so I know this is the medicine. I’m not getting less than 8 -81/2 hours of sleep a night, and on the average I’m getting 9 hours. This is unlike me, as I usually get around 6. But I’ve been making an effort to get more sleep at night because of this exhaustion, but it doesn’t seem to matter how much sleep I get, I still feel as if I’m not getting enough. I’m drifting off during the day and finding it very difficult to stay awake at night. This is getting to be very ridiculous!
Then there is the headache.
I’ve had a constant, vice-like headache since the morning after taking this medication. It follows the same pattern every day. It’s worse in the morning, ebbs in strength towards mid-day, and is slightly there in the afternoon. I have tried two separate and intense physical therapy session to try and abate this headache. My PT has maneuvered my head and neck in some of the oddest combinations, and while my other head symptoms have come and gone throughout these exercises, my headache never ceases or decreases in intensity. It’s his opinion, as of now, as it is mine, that this must be chemical and not physical. I believe it is, seeing as I take the Zoloft at bedtime and the headache is worse when I wake up in the morning and if I wake up at night. It behaves chemically. At least as we believe for now. I’m still keeping my eye on it and doing my physical therapy. But I reiterate, I hate this medicine.
So, on top of the exhaustion and the headache, I’m still in pain. Pain.
And it hurts. It really hurts.
I’m finding myself not able to exercise lately because of it. And that’s not all I can’t do. I really can’t stand how this illness limits us! I’m crying as I write this and not got pity. I’m crying because the options that were given me – Zoloft, Lupron, hysterectomy – these aren’t options.
I’m not tolerating the Zoloft. My body is wearing down on the lowest dose we can start on! Absurd!! That leaves Lupron or a hysterectomy. We all know a hysterectomy doesn’t cure endometriosis, so lets take that off the table right now. That’s one of those “only in case of emergency” situations, in my opinion. I have to do more research into Lupron because right now I’m just not satisfied with it as a treatment option. I’ve heard too many horror stories. And I’ve heard some people happy with it. I know it will just depend on how your body handles it, but my body doesn’t handle medicine very well. So, yeah! Can you see why I’m apprehensive. But I’m also in pain right now!!!